Haven’t received another update from the Lab since day 3.
My Transfer was scheduled for 1:15pm today.
These last few days have felt like an eternity.
walking into the waiting room, and see all three of the women I shared egg collection day with. Now we were all here for embryo transfer.
Was a great feeling, to see we all made it this far.
I was the last to go in….
after so much build up and many complex procedures to get here, Embryo transfer seems almost too simplistic.
All the procedure’s before me were super fast, 5 mins tops!
Good timing, because I was starting to bust for the loo.
Into the room I go – where it all happens.
First thing I ask “how are my Embryos?”
The nurse says “will tell you right after the procedure is finished.”
Righty’o, so I’m laying there legs spread thinking…
This must mean – if I haven’t been given an option of how many embryos to implant…only one must have survived thus far.
Still very grateful to even have one chance, but confused as to why they wouldn’t disclose this to me first.
Before I could ask, the catheter was in. Didn’t feel a thing.
Assistant nurse brings over our blastocyst in an extra long straw.
Then I couldn’t see much else, there was a curtain pulled up.
Couldn’t even see the screen!!!! That was very frustrating, the sonographer was completely blocking my view.
Then I feel something strange…
What’s going on here?? A vibrating sensation on my inner thigh… shit, realizing what was happening, The doctor in between my legs confirms my concern … he was having a tremor attack right in the middle of the procedure!!!!!
And then comments to the embryologist “oh my I haven’t had one of these in a while” heavily breathing down my crotch, getting himself back together.
Then pulls out the tube – checked to make sure the embryo wasn’t stuck to the plastic.
Confirmed- All good.
Doctor leaves the room briefly. (to gather himself together I’m guessing ..)
WHAT JUST HAPPENED HERE ???!!
Still got my legs spread & fanny out. I was shocked & didn’t know what to say right at this point.
The embryologist squats beside me hands me a photo of our little survivor that was buzzed up in me.
Then proceeds to tell me the other two embryos have slowed down. But the Lab will continue to incubate them for a few more days to see if they catch up, And will ring me Wednesday 7/2/18 with another update.
I left the building feeling uncertain about what I thought was meant to be a delicate & precise placement of the blastocyst.
I was angry at why! Why did his tremor have to happen me?
Then I felt sad for the doctor, as it wouldn’t have been a nice experience for him either.
Oh gosh talk about mixed emotions.
And all this has happened in a time frame of only 10 minuets.
At the same time I felt positive baby got where it had to go.
Nurse confirmed that there was no embryo in the tube.
So I need to settle with that and…start this 2WW on that positive high note.
grading was pretty good as well…little bub Is a 4bb.🌕
Sat in the carpark, gazing at the picture of our little blastocyst. This could possibly be our future child. Such an overwhelming sensation of hope.
I just sat there and cried.
So many emotions.
settle in little one!
Hope you stick like Araldite glue!!
(Day 5 ,blastocyst baby)