I.V.F/I.C.S.I Cycle Round 2

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Two months since our first attempt at making a baby. We’re ready to have another crack!

A couple week’s ago – met with our fertility specialist, and discussed the new treatment plan for our second ICSI cycle. Start round 2 next period, due 13th April 2018.

The first try we were unsuccessful in storing any frostie embryos, which means I’ll be going through the whole stimulation process again.

But this time I’ll be taking 275iu of Gonal F (FSH), instead of 225iu. Hoping we get double the amount of good quality eggs with this higher dose.

Not feeling as overwhelmed heading forward with this round, compared to the first go.

That was our practice run. Having a better understanding of the whole process, the sequence in how to administer the medicine and a general idea of the side effects, should take a heap of stress out of the equation.

Counting down the days until my next period.

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10th day after embryo transfer. Day before pregnancy test.

Awoke with a full flowing period.
The sadness is so heavy in my heart.
Think I knew this was happening on day 7 but didn’t want to let go of hope yet!

Called the clinic right away.
When reception answered, I couldn’t muscle up those words over the phone.
Saying it out loud was so hard!
My voice cracked, no words could come out… instead I cried and mumbled “period is here!”

A nurse called me back right away.
She tried to be sympathetic and I know she meant well but the old “oh well, not to worry” line, kind of was a kick in the throat!

She confirmed there is no need for me to come in for final Bloods tomorrow, Seeing as tho I’m experiencing a full flow.

Instead I booked in our next consultation for 14 March 2018.

I’ve completely and utterly beat my self up “mentally” over the last couple of days.
Now I’m going to let this treasured soul go peacefully.

 

9th day after embryo transfer

Not so wet with sweat this morning.
Mild compared to the last couple of nights.
Still spotting this morning.

Nurse rang me and checked in at lunch time.
I told her that I gave in this morning and done a home pregnancy test.
Came back negative.

“Mmm”..Says the nurse.
“Well I would expect something to show up by now, so maybe be prepared for when you get your blood results on Friday.” She said.
“could still be early days” she reminds me…”and may come back positive.”
Although she did mention if my bleeding turns red to give the clinic a call right away.

Had light spotting all day.
Pinky/ Brown- until later in the evening when pink turned to red fresh red. Even showing on the tissue after a wee.
Not a lot but enough to scare me back to reality.
I’m really hoping this is late implantation bleeding.
Will ring the clinic first thing in the morning.
So very hard not to be upset already.
Remaining cautiously optimistic.
Don’t want to unnecessary stress out the body and mind any more than it’s been through these last few months.
Its been difficult these last few days to stay positive.I’m not going to sugar coat bullshit it’s been fucking hard.cant stop crying.

Google has been my best and worst enemy during this 2WW.
On one hand there is this amazing IVF and TTC community {and so many others}, who have been so supportive and inspiring.
The kindness of so many amazing strangers sharing their stories & Extending the hand of friendship just Hits me right in the feels!!

Then on the other hand, argh bloody google, I can’t but help searching symptoms , possible causes, joining hundreds of different forums, to read the final feed & see if others outcome was positive, comparing my self to others…..NOPE!
Ahh hah NO, Not doing this to myself no more.
What am I thinking I know better than this, can’t compare myself to any one else. every one is so different & going through their own journey. I’m only driving my self nuts and opening more unknown questions.
Only a few more days till I get the final results.
I’m holding on tight.
And praying for a miracle.

 

8th day after embryo transfer

Woke covered in sweat again,quickly checked downstairs – no blood on the liner….phew.
So confused.
Feel really crappy today.
Low energy – lethargic. So tired.
Cramps.
Back is killing me.

Extremely concerned, I ring the clinic and spoke with a nurse.
She wanted me to go see my gp and rule out a fever, which could be a possible infection that’s causing the excessive sweating.
Later that arvo & had seen my GP. My temperature was only slightly elevated 37 degrees- so that ruled out a fever.
Had some bloods to check my electrolytes, glucose, a few other goodies. Also had a nose swab to check for a lung virus.
Nice way to freak me the Eff out Doc.
Still no bleeding by lunch time.

Go to work later that evening, only for a few hours.
When I arrived home….I noticed lightly spotting again.
Still pink…mixed with pessaries.
Shit!!!
The nurse gave me so many possible causes…irritated uterus from the progesterone.
Baby Implantation.
Endometrium thinning.
Possible period coming.
Change in hormones.
Agghhhgg!!
Only a couple more days left till bloods.
Nurse asked if I can brave the pessaries a couple more days….Of course I can.

Again at about 4 pm I noticed more spotting- maybe slightly more than spotting but not flowing.
I’m so confused right now. Completely emotionally exhausted.
Still have much hope for this little baby.

7th day after embryo transfer

Monday morning Day 7, I woke up in a sweat, sheets and nickers soaked through.
Hot cold flushes through out the day.
Have had a lot of cramping.
No sore boobs.
Very bloated.
Thirsty- dry mouth.
Aching sore lower back.
When I applied my morning progesterone pessary, noticed it was unusually difficult to insert …similar to putting a tampon in wrong, the tablet also was burning..hadn’t experienced this before.

Later that night I felt damp downstairs….quickly checked and I seen blood.
Light pink..more than spotting, but not like Aunt flow.
Instantly felt faint.
My heart sunk…I thought I had prepared my self for the worst.
Nope.
I broke down.
Eventually pulled my self back together, changed a new liner and went to bed.

6th day after embryo transfer

Aggh can’t help obsessing over every symptom that turns up.
Heartburn is a new one.
Bloating has subsided and the
boobies aren’t as sore either.
Waking up absolutely starving last few mornings, and this is not the norm, usually Its a force feed session.

3rd day after the embryo transfer I came down with mild cold-like symptoms… blocked nose and sneezing.
Apparently this phenomenon is commonly known as the “IVF cold” which is caused by changing hormones.
Thankfully no more blocked nose or irrational sneezing today.

Warning TMI….
After 3 x per day for the last 10 days, I’ve mastered these progesterone fanny bullets. Not as much chalky discharge either, seems to be sucking right up there and working their magic.

Difficult to differentiate from drug side effects, PMS, or early pregnancy symptoms.
Very tempted to take a home pregnancy test.
But I’ll hold off, at least till the day before bloods are due, which is on the 16/2/18.

Finally have started to enjoy this 2ww, just the notion of all the positive possibilities that lay ahead has a really lifted my spirits.
Being able to finally see light at the end of this tunnel after such a long trek in the dark.
Remaining realistic yet more hopeful than ever before.

 

Day 7 – 7/2/18 2nd day after Blastocyst transfer

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Super tired last couple of days.
Lower Back still sore as buggary.
Boobs are a no go zone.. to sore to even wear a bra.
Still having cramps on and off.
Dreading going to work right now it’s crazy hot here in Adelaide.
39• in the shade… I kid you not.

Had a nap before work this afternoon..
Had a vivid dream, that I went to the loo and noticed light spotting & being an early sign that baby has implanted down… I experienced that feeling of utter joy and happiness.. ran to the phone to ring my mum, & tell her the good news… then I was woken back to reality, with my mobile ringing….

It was the Lab with my update.
The other two embryos didn’t catch up as required for freezing. They have to be discarded.
The embryologist reiterated ,the one that was transferred is a good egg!

I don’t know quite how I feel about this at the moment.
Mixed emotions seems to be the running theme this week.

Although that dream left me hopeful…. I’ve had a dream or two that have come true before . Hope this is one of them. 💫✨🍀🤞

keep blossoming my beautiful nugget! You have bought so much joy to us already.

 

Day 6 – 6/2/18 First day after blastocyst transfer

 

Well it’s taken me a few days to be able to even reflect back over today.

I was in a complete funk! Poor Mr.R, it was his birthday too.
I was cranky, happy this was happening , sad for no reason, excited for the fact I could see a future for the first time in ages, angry about what happened yesterday, scared it won’t work, hope it will work, afraid of going back to work tomorrow that involves heavy Labor..carrying equipment up and down stairs- pushing heavy trolleys- Lifting heavy bags. All while trying to remain positive knocking out each bad thought as they invade my brain …this was exhausting!
I slept most of the day. And when I was up, walked around like I was made of glass.

Had major cramps all night and a tight sensation around my lower belly.
Insanely sore boobs,
Bloating is wild.. already look preggerz… sore lower back , these progesterone pessaries 100mg 3 x per day are intense.
They definitely hold the force!!
Hope these cramps are baby hatching out, becoming comfortable and burrowing into my uterus.
Hope the other two are also going healthy strong.
Hanging out for this next call from the Laboratory.

Day 5 – 5/2/18 Blastocyst Transfer Day

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Haven’t received another update from the Lab since day 3.
My Transfer was scheduled for 1:15pm today.
These last few days have felt like an eternity.

walking into the waiting room, and see all three of the women I shared egg collection day with. Now we were all here for embryo transfer.
Was a great feeling, to see we all made it this far.

I was the last to go in….
after so much build up and many complex procedures to get here, Embryo transfer seems almost too simplistic.
All the procedure’s before me were super fast, 5 mins tops!
Good timing, because I was starting to bust for the loo.

Into the room I go – where it all happens.
First thing I ask “how are my Embryos?”
The nurse says “will tell you right after the procedure is finished.”

Righty’o, so I’m laying there legs spread thinking…
This must mean – if I haven’t been given an option of how many embryos to implant…only one must have survived thus far.
Still very grateful to even have one chance, but confused as to why they wouldn’t disclose this to me first.

Before I could ask, the catheter was in. Didn’t feel a thing.
Assistant nurse brings over our blastocyst in an extra long straw.
Then I couldn’t see much else, there was a curtain pulled up.
Couldn’t even see the screen!!!! That was very frustrating, the sonographer was completely blocking my view.
Then I feel something strange…
What’s going on here?? A vibrating sensation on my inner thigh… shit, realizing what was happening, The doctor in between my legs confirms my concern … he was having a tremor attack right in the middle of the procedure!!!!!
And then comments to the embryologist “oh my I haven’t had one of these in a while” heavily breathing down my crotch, getting himself back together.
Then pulls out the tube – checked to make sure the embryo wasn’t stuck to the plastic.
Confirmed- All good.
Doctor leaves the room briefly. (to gather himself together I’m guessing ..)
WHAT JUST HAPPENED HERE ???!!
Still got my legs spread & fanny out. I was shocked & didn’t know what to say right at this point.
The embryologist squats beside me hands me a photo of our little survivor that was buzzed up in me.
Then proceeds to tell me the other two embryos have slowed down. But the Lab will continue to incubate them for a few more days to see if they catch up, And will ring me Wednesday 7/2/18 with another update.

I left the building feeling uncertain about what I thought was meant to be a delicate & precise placement of the blastocyst.
I was angry at why! Why did his tremor have to happen me?
Then I felt sad for the doctor, as it wouldn’t have been a nice experience for him either.

Oh gosh talk about mixed emotions.
And all this has happened in a time frame of only 10 minuets.
At the same time I felt positive baby got where it had to go.
Nurse confirmed that there was no embryo in the tube.
So I need to settle with that and…start this 2WW on that positive high note.
grading was pretty good as well…little bub Is a 4bb.🌕

Sat in the carpark, gazing at the picture of our little blastocyst. This could possibly be our future child. Such an overwhelming sensation of hope.
I just sat there and cried.
So many emotions.
settle in little one!
Hope you stick like Araldite glue!!

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Day 3 3/2/18 EMBRYO UPDATE

Embryologist rang this morning at 11:30am.
Holding my breath.
Analyzing the tone in which she said good morning.
Was she positive? or was she sympathetic? She sounded so neutral it was hard to tell.
Still holding My breath I turned the phone on loud speaker for Mr.R to hear.

Wonderful, wonderful news!!!!
All three made it to day 3🌕🌕🌕
Oh wow, THANK YOU UNIVERSE!!
We cried and laughed, held hands and bounced up and down around in circles on the side of the foot path up the Main Street.

One embryo has 10 cells 🌕
Another has 8 cells 🌕
And the other has 5 cells. 🌕

Our Embryologist told us not to write off “5 Cell” yet.
She said that the embryos were checked early morning, and a lot could develop & grow in a couple of hours it’s still possible at this stage, that embryo will catch up with the other two.
All embryos are growing strong and looking normal.
We are thrilled.

Won’t get another update until the day of implant which is this Monday 5/2/18.🤞🤞🤞

Have never felt so compelled to put positive vibes out to the universe so that Embryo baby’s can feel the immense love I already have for them.

May the gods above bless all three embryos.
Hoping and sending wishes to the universe that they all continue to thrive and develop strong.
Till Monday little ones.
Grow well.💜💕

 

 

2/2/18 Day 2 – After Egg Retrieval

🌀 Wow that anesthetic knocked me around more than expected.
Still quite groggy today but physically feel great!!

Mr.R said to me today “I just wish we could break into the clinic and watch our babies grow & keep them safe?”
Gosh….What a man!!
Love him to bits.
And yes, the thought had already crossed my mind aswell.

My experience with progesterone so far;
Warning TMI (too much information) ahead –
Ok so not sure if I’m inserting the tablet up far enough?
Seems there is a lot of chalk like residue in my undies.
A lot!
Have opted for panty liners during this process.
Be gone – unexpected putty leakages.
I’m not a tampon user so this applicator thing has been a tiny bit awkward for me to get use to.
Has any one else out there experienced this kind of mess/residue leaking?
Is this normal?
I’m going try making sure I get the applicator right up there tomorrow see if that makes any difference.

Praying all 3 embryos make it thriving tomorrow!

 

1/2/18 Day 1: After Egg Retrieval

Feeling really lethargic from the anesthetic….luckily I don’t have to start work till later in the evening. So I slept for most of the day – with the phone close by.

No more bleeding when I awoke.
Ovaries feel like a cramp – tight sensation , nothing major.
Feeling really really nervous, anxious, and still coming to terms with everything that has happened over the last few months. Everything has lead us to this blessed chapter in our lives.
Mixed emotions – very hopeful yet those moments of fear creep up and knock me down.
It’s hard at times to remain positive.
But I’m trying.
We are so lucky to be in a position where we are able to have a go at IVF -conceiving a child together is the one thing both of us have always wanted the most.

Feel like I can’t breathe right now, waiting for this phone call from the embryologist.
It’s nearly 2:15pm and still no call from the clinic.
Contemplating calling them my self, Before I wear a hole in the carpet.

2:30pm
The call came.
All 6 follicles were a good size upon collection, and all follicles were injected with high grade sperm.
Unfortunately only 3 made it.

But that’s 3 embryos!!!
We are over the moon.
So bloody happy!!!!
Come on embryo babies we are praying you ALL make it strong and healthy.
Next call from the clinic will be Saturday 3/2/18.

trying not to dwell on the three that we lost. I cried for them. Then picked my self up and focused on the positive instead.

Tomorrow I start vaginal tablets 3 times per day of =
(progesterone 100mg).

 

31/1/18 Day 0 Egg Collection Day!

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Mr.R began a new job yesterday and wasn’t able to take time off to cheer me on today.
Luckily we already have his sperm on ice, & Instead he can be useful elsewhere.
Mum kindly took the day off work (last minute) and came to support me.
Extra special being able to share this experience with my Mum!!
And of all the dates….Egg retrieval falls right on the night of a rare blue moon and a lunar eclipse!
This is a high energy day.. feeling really positive.

Six eggs were collected
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Considering I have an extremely low reserve I continue to tell my self this is a good number. I remain hopeful and feeling pretty lucky today🐞

After ER
Woke up really well from the anesthetic.
Feel good, not in any pain.
Light bleeding.
Legs are a touch achey from being spread wide open in stirrups, been a while since I’ve had my legs that far apart.
Observations checked out well.
Managed to void easily.
Nurse bought me a sandwich and a cuppa tea.
Smashed that down , was starving!
The nurse told me they will call with an update tomorrow.
She pulled out the JELCO (I.V Drip) out of my hand then I Got dressed and walked out, an hour and a half later.

To think in just a few hours time, Mr.R’s Sperm and Miss Frigg’s egg’s finally get to meet each other.

This feels so surreal.
We are praying for you babies.✨

Now we wait for the phone call tomorrow to hear how fertilization went🤞

 

Cycle day 10 30/1/18 Needle free night.

🌀 No injection’s tonight.
Egg retrieval tomorrow.
Had a fright today, noticed signs of ovulation, decide to call the
Fertility Nurse and she reassured me this symptom was normal during assisted treatment.
Feeling quite anxious and excited for Wednesday’s egg retrieval.
Don’t think much sleep will be happening.
Tonight at what would have been injection time, I experienced a few weird banging/throbbing sensation’s, in what felt like the cervix.
Oohh it felt so strange, luckily
the feeling quickly went away.
And hasn’t returned again.
Fasting from midnight tonight egg collection 8:30am tomorrow.
Got my fingers and legs crossed.
🤞 🤞🤞

29/1/18 First Bloods and Transvaginal scan

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There are 5 good sized follicles💜
Was expecting more, but five is better than none. One of them oocyte’s may be THE ONE.
And pretty good considering I have such a low egg reserve.
Very happy indeed!!!!
Tonight I stop the Gonal f + Orgalutran.
Instead it’s Trigger time!!! Ovidrel get in my belly💉
And egg retrieval Wednesday morning…
Wow we are going to make a baby on Wednesday.

 

28/1/18 Cycle Day 8: Gonal f 225 ml + Orgalutron 250ug

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🌀 Had to pull my attitude up today been a bit irritable, easily frustrated and sulky.
Once I recognized this, managed to reign it in.
Can feel a tightness in my ovaries…hope they are full of follicles now.
Gurgling away still –
Kind of feels like I have Premenstrual symptoms last two days.
energy levels were low this afternoon, took a nap to recharge & awoke feeling much better.
And have had an enormous appetite since taking these medications.
Not as thirsty today, a few glasses of Salvital sorted that out.

Night 8 of injection’s:
Armed with Emla 5% numbing cream I had complete confidence going forward.
Applied the cream half hour before injections so Emla had time to work its magic.
Oh it was wonderful.
Didn’t feel a thing.
Didn’t even feel the tough stuff Orgalutran…………
Until the medicine trickled in. BURNING. BURNING. ouchie!!!!
Ok so that concludes my theory “its the medicine that’s stings/burns !!!”. I can deal with that.

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1st scan and Bloods 29-1-18

Tomorrow morning we get to see how our baby follicles are growing.
And do bloods to check how everything is going with the treatment.
I’m so excited and nervous hoping praying believing this will work!

Fingers crossed. 💜💕

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( A kiss to make me feel better Cycle day 5.)

 

27/1/18 Cycle Day 7: Gonal f 225 ml Orgalutron 250ug

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Bit run down & dragging my feet, just want to sleep every where. Yet at the same time have an intense amorous desire for Mr.R. Otherwise in good spirits.
Bloating has ceased.
And noticed I have more flatulence than normal….pretty much since day three of assisted treatment.
Also have my first bruise,from last nights Orgalutran shot.

We’ve learned from previous experience with needles for Mr. R , that taking the syringes out of the fridge 10-15 minuets before hand helps lessen the stinging sensation when the medicine goes in, because it’s not so cold.
We didn’t have the time do this last night.

 

7th night of injections:
Gonal f – done like a professional.
Orgalutran – still makes me cry out in pain…maybe IT IS the darn needle? not the medicine. Gosh it feels like a 1989 school immunization shot in the belly!
But is becoming more tolerable. And this is what We’ve been praying for. I’m not complaining….just venting.

Going to pull out my trusted “Emla 5%“ numbing cream and rub that on tomorrow night for the “Orgalutran”
Hope that works!

 

 

 

26/1/18 Cycle Day 6: Gonal f 225 ml Orgalutron 250ug

Australia Day Holiday.
Ive been really tired and flat today, still got slight bloating & now a bit of a ache in my lower back. A hot water bottle is my best friend right now, even with this stinking 42 degree heat!
Caught myself being a bit snappy today and woke up crying over a contestant that lost on a tv show the night before …..that was weird.
But other than that feeling alright for day six.

Tonight’s Injection’s
2nd Orgalutran shot + 6th Gonal f:
Really wasn’t looking forward to having another crack at the almighty painful Orgalutran.
Luckily I had Mum down tonight and She was a good distraction.

First up I administered the Gonal f, bang….in…done, sweet as.
Mr.R is taking the “Org needle” out of the plastic holder….then all of a sudden it falls apart in two pieces on the floor!!!!
What the?

Right so that just happened, & now we’re running against the clock. Because we decided to go watch the Aussie day fireworks at 9pm and got home just in the nick of IVF time.
(We have from 9pm till 10pm to do the jab’s, and it was now 9:50pm!!!)

We didn’t have time to waste, out with another needle and in it went.
Ouch. Burning.
But definitely better than the 1st….actually found it was easier to get it over and done with swiftly instead of procrastinating.
Although this one bleed a bit afterwards.
Mr.R said the plunger is quite stiff to push in & Same problem last night.
The medicine looks thicker than the Gonal F, maybe this is why it’s tougher to push down?maybe that’s why the needle gauge is a tiny bit thicker too.

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25/1/18 Cycle Day 5: Gonal f 225 ml + Orgalutron 250ug

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So today has been interesting.
My sense of smell is extremely heightened I can smell everything so intensely.
And have been having sensation’s of little zaps and buzzing in the ovaries region.
And gurgling lots of gurgling.
Can definitely feel movement in the station that’s for sure.
Not painful or uncomfortable just strange.
I’m a bit bloated, when I stand up can’t see my muff!
But still feeling pretty good.

Tried not to think about tonight’s needles ALL day, but turned out that’s all I did.

5th lot of Injections:

Gonal f, was Gonal good!
Orgalutran burned like hell.
Not going to lie and excuse my poor language, but fuck it hurt!!
Not so much the needle that hurt but the medicine going in that hurt, and then an after sting/burning sensation that lasted 20 mins!
This Orgalutran stuff must be some good shit!!
Magic medicine do your thing.

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24/1/18 Cycle Day 4: Gonal f 225 ml

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🌀 Feeling pretty good so far, can’t complain.
Periods seem to have come to an early end, had slight spotting last night, but nothing today.

4th Gonal f injection:

Don’t know what I was worrying about all day, needle went in like a dream.
Either I’m getting braver or better, not sure which one.
But with saying that, tonight is my last night of single shots, tomorrow is doubles.
And the thought of that is freaking me the heck out, throwing me off my
“ I can do this” victory.. and becoming “I don’t know if I can do that”.
So We’ve decided I’ll do the Gonal f tomorrow night and Mr.R can do the Orgalutran injection.

Whats really freaking me out the most, is with the ‘Org’ injection we have to insert the needle as normal ..but THEN have to gently draw back on the plunger – to check it went in correctly. If any blood appears in the syringe, we didn’t do it right and have to start again!
Now blood is my next downfall …so nope, nope , nope!
Will leave this one to Mr. R
All though I think he’s secretly looking forward to doing it.

 

23/1/18 Cycle day 3 Gonal f 225ml

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Woke with a slight band of tightness around my temples almost a headache, yet not quite.
Feeling mentally foggy all day and decision making has been vague.

Also this morning I noticed the menses had completely stopped!
So, waited till lunch and still nothing.
Slight panic.
Day 4 of my period is usually heavy’ish, so I rang the fertility nurse and she reassured me that this can be normal during treatment.
She tells me “some times they just turn off and on.”

PHEW …. a sigh of relief. Was worried all day something was wrong. Nope not to worry….just another needle in a few hours to come.

Injection 3.
Okay so tonight’s jab was a bad shot!
I “white’ed” out after pulling out the needle and passed out.
Did NOT go in as well as the other two.

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( White out moment )

Think I over pinched the stab area… it was hard to push in, it hurt and kind of stung. Pulling the needle back out was a whole other traumatic event on its own.
Ok, so one bad jab now and then is to be expected I guess.
But when it comes to this baby, I’ll do absolutely anything!
another lesson learned.
Don’t over squeeze the injection area, I won’t forgot this again!
Soon will be a pro.
(I hope).

 

22/1/18 Day 2 of cycle Gonal f 225ml

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First day of Gonal F surging through the internal gonads.
Still feeling no different than any other day.
Usual period pain symptoms, Nothing out of the ordinary.

The 2nd injection:
Tonight’s jab wasn’t as pleasant as last night’s.
Heres a tip, avoid applying hand lotion before using the Gonal f pen.
Just added extra slipperiness on top of the nervous sweaty palms and become difficult to manage.
At least this time I remembered to hold down the plunger while retracting the need out.🐞

 

22/1/18 Affects after first dose of Gonal f

 

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First day after the injection, and so far feeling pretty good. No different than normal. Only thing I have noticed is a slight buzzing sensation near the injection site, not uncomfortable just a bit weird.
No bruising.
Needle was less traumatic that I expected, hoping tonight’s is the same again.
Glad we recorded the first attempt as had noticed watching back I forgot to hold down the plunger while pulling the needle out, so will be sure to do that tonight.
Final reading was at 0, so I’m pretty sure (hope) all the medicine got in there.
Mr.R seems to think I’m in a better mood than normal…..I recon that’s just pure relief and joy from finally being able to have a crack at IVF after wanting this opportunity for so long.
So far so good 😊

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21/1/2018 Stage 1: Ovarian stimulation & monitoring

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🌀 I’m so excited and I just can’t hide it😆”singing: The Pointer Sisters”.

It’s officially happening tonight at 9pm it’s stabby stab time!

225 units of Gonal F
(Follitropin Alfa 900 IU)
Get in my belly!

[ GonalF: four nights, then begin antagonist: 259 ug of Orgalutran
(Ganirelix) on night four of cycle. ]

Followed up with bloods and a scan on the 29/1/18.

Then stage 2: egg retrieval and fertilization using Intra-cytoplasmic sperm injection (ICSI).

iVf and intra-cytoplasmic sperm injection (icsi) are the two most popular assisted reproductive technologies used for successful fertilisation. the only difference between the two is the way the egg is fertilised. iVf allows the sperm to penetrate the egg of its own accord whereas icsi directly inserts the sperm into the egg. this is done under a microscope by qualified technicians using very fine tools for micromanipulation. the technique is used when the sperm is unable to penetrate the egg wall. if the egg is fertilised, the embryo is inserted into the uterus in the same way as for iVf.

pretty amazing, totally trusting in the universe right now….we got you babe!

 

NEW BEGINNINGS

December in a nutshell:

🌀 It’s been six weeks since the removal of both my Fallopian tubes….feeling better than ever before, home the same night of surgery and even back to normal daily activities at week two of recovery!

High five to Mr. R’s testicular aspiration, he produced 9 straws of healthy and active semen for cryopreservation…. nice one!!

This period has definitely bought up a bunch of emotions and personal challenges, for both of us.

At first we tried to keep this IVF buizzo to ourselves.
But was becoming tricky to keep up with unexplained stints to the Hospital, time off work and cancelled dinners with friends.
So we decided to try the opposite approach and be candid with those closest – Family, friends and employer’s. Turns out it’s been easier than keeping it on the down low.
Less pressure off Mr. R and myself especially having that extra support and help around.

  • So here’s the exciting bit…
    We begin ICSI today!!!!!
    Commence FSH injections at 9pm tonight.
    Eekkk have been waiting for this moment for so long!!!!!!