10th day after embryo transfer. Day before pregnancy test.

Awoke with a full flowing period.
The sadness is so heavy in my heart.
Think I knew this was happening on day 7 but didn’t want to let go of hope yet!

Called the clinic right away.
When reception answered, I couldn’t muscle up those words over the phone.
Saying it out loud was so hard!
My voice cracked, no words could come out… instead I cried and mumbled “period is here!”

A nurse called me back right away.
She tried to be sympathetic and I know she meant well but the old “oh well, not to worry” line, kind of was a kick in the throat!

She confirmed there is no need for me to come in for final Bloods tomorrow, Seeing as tho I’m experiencing a full flow.

Instead I booked in our next consultation for 14 March 2018.

I’ve completely and utterly beat my self up “mentally” over the last couple of days.
Now I’m going to let this treasured soul go peacefully.