8th December 2018
It’s now December.
The Earth’s done a complete 360 around the Sun since embarking on this voyage of IVF.
Time to jump out of the IVF fish bowl for a little while; Doctor has prescribed a break until the end of January.
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After our follow up with the fertility specialist in October, still no definitive answer to all my abnormalities. Dr wanted to try me on 10mg of Provera for 21 days in attempt to halt my irregular menstrual bleeding. Once I’d completed 21 days, I was to wait until day 5 of the next period and start another 21 days of Provera.
The idea was to reset my internal cycle back to normal.
But not everything went to plan. And I was toat’s cool with that – learning to adapt revise and survive! After 12 days taking Provera and 17 days of bleeding, the Doctor decided to up my dose to 20 mg per day.
But 21 days later and still bleeding. Turns out there wasn’t a period to wait for – Still had one going from the month before.
My specialist had a meeting with some other specialists and done some brainstorming.
Their conclusion was this can be a normal reaction. Push on with the next course of Provera and back to 10 mg per day. Righty-o.
By this stage I’d fallen flat on my arse, felt so weak and exhausted.
Thirty days of continuous bleeding WTF!! Not only did I feel flat, my mental health had taken a rapid decline. Numb. Antisocial. Irritable. Low. Miserable. Withdrawn. Tearful. Angry. Helpless. Uninterested. Became sucked into a vortex of self-hate.
FINALLY on round two and day two of Provera the bleeding stopped. Fanfuckingtastic!!!
Spoke with our specialist about how I was feeling. She said “it’s the Provera, in some instances can make you depressed.” If you feel you’re able to cope a little longer “she asked?” Let’s see how this final treatment goes. She ran a full blood count; iron levels came back good, which was surprising.
Now at the end of HRT and I haven’t had a bleed for 18 days. So seems my body is syncing back to its normal cycle, rather than bleeding for an entire month.
Been off of that wretched Provera for 7 days and already feel like that heavy darkness has lifted away.
No more tests, Doctors appointments or any IVF related activities until the 19th Jan 2019.
Creating a child will always be on the forefront of my mind, but a break from all this sounds wonderful!
Going to hit the refresh button for the New Year ahead!
May 2019 bring blessings to all far and wide.
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