Beginning new IVF cycle | The Pipeless Lovers Journey through I.V.F

7th Embryo transfer didn’t stick! FUCK.

Such a long drawn out build up… months of injections, ass patches, bucket load’s of tablets, nasal spray that burns the skull and gel stick’s up my V-jay jay….

Then came the two week wait …….

5DP5DT (5 days past 5 day embryo transfer) I decided to try a home pregnancy test = Negative.

7DP5DT still with high hopes done another HPT with my first morning pee = Negative. Tell myself that slow and steady wins the race….faster is not always better. Later that night tried another brand of HPT and again = Negative.

8DP5DT so many side effects, to many to monitor with out going mad. Done another HPT = Negative. Shit what’s going on??

Its always at this stage of the TWW that I find the hardest to get through.

9DP5DT really irritable – Everything and every one is annoying me today. Tits feel like their going to explode, waves of nausea, Vag feels heavy. Waited all day before doing another HPT. This time got one of those first response digital tests….at 5:30pm peed on it and waited anxiously…..those words ”NOT PREGNANT” flashed up and I didnt have any feelings…..Numb

10DP5DT – one day off from my HCG blood test, just one more day. No bleeding yet.

11DP5DT : 20/11/2020 Today is the day we officially find out what I feel I already know the answer to……yet still remaining hopeful, telling myself that maybe all the HPT came back negative because there’s not enough HCG in the blood stream yet. Maybe the medications I’m on are giving off a false reading. Still no period and its cycle day 32 thats a good sign.

Had HCG bloods done at 9am, received a call from the clinic with results a lunch time.

I already knew my results by the tone of their voice the moment nurse said hello.

This time I had no tears no emotion at all.

After the usual “so sorry thought this one was the one, do you want to use our free psychology services? Was put through to reception to book a follow up appointment with our specialist….January 2021.

HOPE.

Hope really is an amazing thing. Given all that I knew, Still some how in the back of my mind, thought that maybe the blood test results were wrong, periods still haven’t arrived and maybe there’s still a chance this will work.

Cycle day 34 periods came.

The day after my periods came with the vengeance our fertility specialist called to see if we wanted to reschedule an earlier appointment, rather than waiting till next year.

‘How soon are you looking at trying again?” she asked. ”Like yesterday” I replied. “Ok when will you and Mr.R be in the same room together?”she asked. “At lunch today” I said. “Great ill give you both a call at 1pm for a consultation if that works for you?”. “Yes , Excellent!” I replied.

Mr.R and I had a long phone consultation with our specialist and by the time we hung up, we were jumping right back into another round of follicle stimulation injections.

No time to mentally prepare, started Menopur injections the next night on cycle day 2.

Round 7 of stims here we go and embryo transfer number 8 in 2021!